It Hit Hard!

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We were all hit so very hard when we heard that grammy was hit with this ailment. We heard that she passed out from a seizure or something like that. That really put a scare in all of us. Grammy is always the sign of good health and always has all this energy. She has come here many times to cheer me up during this time when I have lost my job. But the funny thing is that she has lost her job also. But she never seems to be down. She may leave you with a scripture and good tidings and then she is on her way. The bad thing is that we don't say sometimes how we feel. Many of times I always wanted to say thank you for cheering me up and giving me some upbuilding advice and it;s always something that you really needed to hear too. Many times I have wanted to say thank you so much for keeping me in your thoughts and coming over here to cheer me up especially when she is busy herself. But no matter what she has time for all of us always. All my girls love her very much but we probably don;t say it as many times as we should say it. My wife is hit very hard with sadness right now since her mom couldn't be loved anymore than the love her daughter has for her. I never see my wife cry but today she did alot of crying and at one time I had to go downstairs to the bathroom to cry myself. The sadness just swallowed me up. Life is too short and sometimes is threatened so we need to alwys tell our loved ones that we love them.

Where are we Now?

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It is a wonderful thing when you get your body repaired and especially you are able to walk again. But the recouperating time can really kill you especially when you are use to working alot and you are used to being busy instead of hanging around the house. It is very tuff getting not only used to it all but adjusting your life to the time it takes to recover is unbelievable. It even makes it difficult to keep liking everyone. When you are used to seeing them for only a certain amount of time each week and then you are with them all day long and then some. My life has always been working at night so I never did see alot of the family. So we used to look forward to my days off when we would get together to do things all together. Now it is nothing like that anymore. The family looks like they have had enough of me and I can see their point of view. They have had enough and it is time for me to get back to some normalcy again. So I have all my guns out looking to get something in order to get myself back out there so I can work again. Please I need it very badly. Today I found a friend that might be getting a manager job so I could get something through that and I would be working with old time associates again. That would be so very great!

Tubing with the Buddies!

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We all went tubing to the Abbott's Tubing and Rafting. It was a great day, the sun was out and it was hot, and the water was like an ice cube. They said no matter what time of the year the water stays icy cold. Brrrrrrr. But after awhile it got bearable. A couple people actually dove into the water, I was afraid I would get the grand-daddy of heart attacks if I dove in that icy cold water. We had a great time floating down or up the river whatever the right words are. We even had our three year old grandson with us and that was really a great time. Mimi took care of him the entire time of the tubing exhibition. I was suppose to help but somehow my tube would not steer her way to pick up the boy, oh my. Then after we got home we were going to spend some time at our community pool but the other group took too long to get there so we ended up going home and when they came we let them have the key so they all could go to the pool for some more swimming. We all took a nap along with our grandson. But then our son-in-law came over to pick him up instead of his mother, our daughter. That was very awkward since they are going through a divorce and he was telling his side of the story to my wife and myself. So we gave him the listening ear that he seemed to have wanted. He said how sorry he was about everything but this is what has happened. It was very sad to listen to since divorce is always a very sad experience for all involved.

Where To?

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It is tubing tomorrow. It should really be alot of fun as long as we can keep our mind on the tubing itself instead of any of the crazy things that are happening now at this time. My mother has been doing very badly lately and we don't know what is going on with her at all. So that is very crazy right now and it keeps getting worse. We did think that after the operation that she had would have helped her at least a little bit. But it is not looking good. No, not at all. So the doctor has given us some alternatives about what we can do about our dear mother who has fought this so hard. She has put everything she can into this. We are all so proud of her and she has given me a new lease helping me not to give up on the little things in life and letting me know how important life is. We will have to tell her that the head doctor is rccomending the hospice road for her since the other roads are too difficult for her to take. Even with an operation they don't believe she will get through the operation with her life. They feel it would be too tough on her heart and lungs, along with all her other organs. They feel as though she just wants to be medicated and sleep and we do believe that that is what she truly wants. The doctor said she likes to take the medicine and lay down and sleep, wake up and repeat the same thing over again. So after I have a phone conversation with her then we will try to find out what she wants out of all this. My brother is fighting all this because he wants to make a decision but yet he doesn't. That way no blame will come to him but if something good happens he surely will take the credit. So what now?

Are They Really Real?

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Sometimes we think we find new relatives and since the computer it seems like it happens alot. But can we take people's word on something like that? I don't believe we can since it has happened to me so I know from the bad experience of it all and it's not all pretty. It can create bad feelings in the family for sure. I had a meeting with someone when I was just a kid, or at least a young man. A brief meeting caused someone to say I was the father. But sometimes they may not have the name of another individual so your name gets put on the certificate. And during these days when the economy is so bad and jobs are not the easiest things to find it makes it difficult to get the dna test since that could cost somewhere in the area of $300 to $500 dollars. But by not duing it sometimes they feel and think that it is all true and it's bad when you know that is not the case at all. It just so happens that someone at the time took an interest in this individule and that caused them to lean on me or at least lean on my name. At the time this was thought to be funny and they got their ha ha ha's out of it. But now with the computer and especially facebook it is not that funny anymore. Especially when you are tracked down and the only way to convince anyone is that home dna test that they send you. And especially when someone in your family is just wanting something like this so very bad now. Why? I really don't know since there are five siblings already so we have a large family. Maybe it's because we have five girls and this other person is a male. Could they have wanted a male in the family that bad that they just grabbed onto this and ran with it. It is so very hard to explain or to believe as we look at it now. It's the man that produces the male and that is just fine with me but now I don't want to think that I might have that ability to produce a male. I am not happy with that conclusion at all now.

The Move!

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What a difference between the tab and the enter button. It's something else. Well today was to be the move and alot of the friends were standing by to help my mother-in-law which was so great. That is so amazing when there are so many people that look to help each other. That is when you really see the love at it's best. I was on stand-by also. There were so many people that I was never really called in to help. I hope it was that and not because my grand dad had bought me a walker and a wheel chair. He was trying to be funny but it was a little gruesome instead. Since yesterday I got some bee stings and I got a very bad reaction and I had to lay down for awhile since I was having very bad pains in my chest from it. It was also my grandson's football game tonight and I was about to go but I thought that some secret people might be going so I opted out of going to his first game of football which made me feel bad about the whole ordeal. Even though I was feeling bad about it all I still stayed out of going to the function although I had gotten excited about the whole thing. I just keep saying that there will be another and I will be going there for that one. I assured him that I wouldn't miss that one even though he didn't seemed to be devastated or anything like that. I will make it up to him down the line about the whole thing. Love is a wonderful thing and we should never let it take us down with it at all.

The Move!

Just Cutting the Grass!

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I started my ole lawnmower like always and it's the kind that doesn't go on it's own. I always say I want all the exercise that comes with it but really I'm too cheap to spend the extra money for an upgrade on the mower. Yeah man! Oh well so I am moving along and it is a real hot day at least in the mid 90's for sure. So I get to the edge and instead of edging later I start to pull the grass out with my own hands. All of a sudden I see several bee's coming out from the grass. It looks like I might have hit a small nest of some sort. So now I am feeling a nice strong sting on my ankle and also I am feeling my face is getting a little funny feeling too. It's when I start feeling some pains in my chest that I thought I might make this come to an end now. So I got in the house and as I was laying down that the pains in my chest were getting worse. Now I am starting to worry since the pain is very very bad now. And I am also feeling the bee stings pretty bad now. So since I really couldn't spot any of the stingers I figured that I would just start scrubbing and little by little I would scrub those stingers right out of my body. It seemed to make sense to me at the time since it was really hurting now. I'll tell you that after the shower when I was laying down I was in some really bad pain, and it was all over. I really came close to going to the hospital but it was meeting night and they were dressed and ready to go, so I just said I'll be fine just go on without me. At that I was trying to be the brave guy and was out to make the family proud of me. I hope they were since I had some serious pain. The worst was my hands were swollen and very painfull. But being truthful I did get a little scared that I was close to having some sort of heart attack or just a very bad attack or an allergy attack from the stingers. It's scary when you get close to things like that. So today I went out and finished the yard and nothing bad happened. Let's see if a surprise visitor is somewhere now.

It's Tomorrow

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Well today we all went to the pool and that's me and the kids, that's we. We had a very good time there, the sun was shinning nice and strong. Actually I left first since they were having such a good time that I just left them there. Tomorrow it will be 7:30am and then it's over. I am headed straight to the jewish deli to get my very special food that I love so very much. It is the smoked salmon topped with a red onion and a very nice ripe tomato. Yum! After two days of eating only jello and cubed soup that will be such a great pleasure, one that I will really be looking forward to. I am even getting a little excited thinking about it being over. Especially since I have to be there at 7:30am so I should be out of there by eleven am at the latest or at least I pray that it would be the latest time possible until I get out of there. I almost feel like wearing my tennis shoes so I could dart out of there like I was shot right out of a cannon. I will be darting out of that place like a firecracker was placed you know where to give me that added charge to get going alot quicker. I will be one happy dude after that.

The Procedure

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Well it is only two days away before it's time for the procedure. The worst thing about it is the days before. This time it's two days of going through the strict diet and the cleansing of the body. It is all clear liquids only and no solid foods at all. It always makes it harder when you have to watch the family eating all the good things that they normally like to fix and eat. They were all eating those wonderful tomato sandwiches and of course I just love them. This is a very important procedure which people over fifthty should go through and then do it just about every five years or so. If you are found to have pollops then you must do it more frequently. It is a way to prevent cancer and there are not that many that are preventable like this one. Like I said the days leading up to the procedure are the hardest days of all. You get to fill this prescription that has this liquid that you are to drink the night before the procedure. That takes about three hours to drink and tha is the final cleaning process. It's also a little hard drinking the boulion soup that is perfectly clear. It is basically some water and you drop one boulion cube in it for some flavoring to make it a little tasty. So I have one more day to take in these clear liquids and then the final day you report at 7:30am and the procedure takes place at that time. So at least there is not that much waiting on that last day which is so good. On top of everything it's great to get all cleaned out so long as you keep remembering that only the clear liquids must you take in.

A Scare at The Labor Dept.

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Well it was a little scary when they told me how I had to come right in since my claim was over due. But the paper I received in the mail said to just keep filing and everything would be just fine. So I left at seven am the next morning and off I went to the labor board. I got there very early but these days it has really gotten busy, so busy that they had added chairs everywhere. So after arriving very early I had to wait and wait and wait. It is a good thing that I brought my watchtower since I had plenty of time, so much time that I finished my watchtower completely. Yes that place was jamming. But when they called my name everything went real smooth and after just a couple of minutes I was on my way home with the job done. I told the lady how bad I felt since I was still out of work but she said don't worry the jobless rate is growing as we speak. So after that I knew it wasn't just me but the economy had really dropped. So today my wife and I had a good day going to the gym to work out for about an hour. It always feels good when we do that. Especially since my checks weren't going through so we were behind in paying our bills. I had to go and withdraw some from the savings to make things right. When we have to do that it is always heartbreaking.

Where is It?

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Well I learned a new thing yesterday and that is called facebook. I feel a little gayish to be me and be on facebook but it seems like all my friends are there and then some. So I feel I am just moving with progress this time. What can you say about that. The only thing bad is if you have people you don't want to talk to then you could be in trouble with them toning in and wanting to be friends and if you let someone be friends that you don't know that well then stinky things could happen to you. Well yesterday I heard a bad thing that hurt. It was when a daughter called her in-laws and asked them about their divorce and her reply from them was that they were in favor of the divorce. Even my Mom when I told her once was not happy about me getting a divorce. She may have done everything possible to push me to that point but when she realized that it was going to happen she was sad and didn't want that to happen to me. But that was not the case for my daughter since the in-laws wanted their son to leave her. They had no consolling words and no way did they want them to get back together. So to them marriage is not sacred and special I guess. Even if that would not be my choice I would never be behind the divorce. Especially since you can't pick their spouse in the first place anyway. So what does it all mean? Whatever you get from it I guess.

Sunday is Over!

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Well like I said it's over for this week anyway. People are divorcing and others are arguing and peopkle are looking as to who gets the kids. It is getting crazy, so it's like welcome good ole Monday. Probably the worse thing is when I talked to my mom and she told me that the hospital she is in told her she had less than 3 years left in her life. That floored me especially since I never thought someone could just tell her something like that. I thought they would have to consult the family or something like that. Especially since she has a weak heart and who knows what information like that could do to her. She is laid up in the hospital with very bad legs where she can't even get around on her own. That is a big reason she can't go home yet and she did let me know about her wish to be at home when that scary day would come to get her. It is good right now that some of the family is visiting her at the hospital. Really most of the gratitude goes to kristina who at twenty one takes on alot of this. She shows her love to mom almost every day by visiting her and also bringing her food and helping her with her clothes. The rest of the family lives too far to help at this time but still that is no excuse. But the praise still goes to kristina since she is doing something that is way beyond praise. It is worth so much thankfulness I could not even begin with the praise. She is doing something very special right now and I don't think she even realizes how special it really is. I try telling her at every chance I get and that's by saying," what would happen if you were not able to do what you are doing, I would not even want to think about it". What a girl!

It is Rough!

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Sometimes you don't realize how good things are until it's too late. Even if you have people in the family that you don't feel like you are that close to them, you can find out later how much they did mean to you. Sometimes you don't see too much of that person and pretty much you don't think about them that much either. But all of a sudden they are breaking up and you will now loose that person from your family and even though you didn't see them that much but now you know they will be gone. So I guess I took them for granted in a way but at the time you felt like that's the way they liked it and of course you are not the type of person that would ever rock the boat. Not now, not ever. So now they are just about gone all but the crying and picking up the pieces. So it is always good to remember that when they are gone it's too late because by then the crying won't help, nothing will help at that time. And of course you wanted to step in and show your concerns but you didn't want to but in either. So when you didn't really think it was serious you stayed out of it for fear you would make it bad. Now that it has gotten really bad you think you should have said something from the beginning and maybe you could have prevented this if at all possible. It is so sad and remember it's loosing a member that really wasn't in your life that much at all. So it does make you realize what loosing family members does especially when kids are involved too. It makes me so sad especially since I really thought him and I always had this connection, I know we weren't close but I always thought that we were buddies. Now that this much time has passed there is nothing I could see me doing except start the crying machine. I might have let pride get in the way or maybe I felt I would make it worse instead of going with the gut feeling. Don't let this happen without interjecting your thoughts like I did.

Happy to be Alive!

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Well sometimes it seems too late to do something and you really feel bad that it has to be that way. I feel that will happen with my mom since she is in such bad condition right now. Her breathing has gotten so bad that I was thinking that the doctors must have done something that they should not have done. So I came up with the idea of looking into the matter in case that is something that happened. Of course you could look into that and think I am trying to make some money over it. But that is really not the reason, it's because if the doctors did something like that then I would feel someone should have to pay for something like that. Now I also am feeling bad about my daughters family. When they were at my house and I had a party I introduced my son in law to everyone since I had feelings for him of course. So now that they are getting a divorce I am really feeling terrible since I am feeling that there are things that I should have done that I didn't. I never knew that they were taking their relationship to this level so now I feel I could have gone to him to advise or express my love for them together. I kept thinking that it was too late to say anything and now I just feel that I should have said something especially since I feel they were good together and I really didn't feel as though bad things like this would have happened between them. So when you think you should say something don't think about it just do it!

The Convention!

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Well we all went to a wonderful weekend of great spirituality. It was the best. We were looking at the last days are not that far away. We can see how people have really turned bad at this time. Also with this bad economy it really seems xtra bad all the time. So by going to the convention this weekend we learned alot of what the new system will bring. We are not in fear of the end since we know what will surely come. When Jesus comes down to us all we will know that these days will come to it's end. When all the 144,00 will judge mankind with it's king Jesus Christ. Then the righteous and the unrighteous will be brought to the forfront and will be judged by our God Jehovah and his son Jesus Christ. We will want to be among the group that is approved by our king and redeemer Jesus Christ. We also look forward to the ressurrection and to the time when no man will say " I am sick". The time when there will be no more pain and no more death, the former things have been done away with. What a beautiful time for sure that will be and the devil will be put into the abyss for one thousand years. We can't wait for the day!

Here Come the Witnesses!

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We had our wonderful convention this weekend and many are having their convention all the different weekend's coming up for many weekend's to come. It is so faith inspiring that we need that during these days. Especially these days that we consider to be the last days. That was the true subject of the convention being in the last days before Jesus will be sent here to be our King and Jehovah God's government with then take over and will do the things that no earthly government has ever been able to do. God's promise was that one day we would all live in a paradise right here on earth, yes right here on earth. Our job will be to work right here and to bring this earth to a paradise the way it was intended to be. The 144,000 will rule in heaven with Jesus as their king and everyone else will stay right here on earth to make this a wonderful paradise. Then the scripture in Revelation 21:1-4 will come to be where it says there will be no mourning nor outcry nor pain nor death, the former things have passed away. Wow! What a great day that will be. That is why it is so important to seek God's kingdom now and all the other things will be added to us. It is important to follow the bible now and to do the things in it, like preaching the word of truth throughout the lands. The witnesses offer free bible studies to all who seek the truth.

Back at the Pool!

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We went to the pool today and it was a good day. The sun was shining and the water was warm and all that good stuff. What started it all out was that my grandson come into my house with grease on his shoes and he tracked it all through the house on our off white carpets. Then of course I had to take out the machine to try and clean the carpets before the grease would sink into the carpets and really make the carpet look bad. It could have made it look like the carpet needed to be thrown out. That is what tracking grease through the house will do to the carpet especially since we have had this carpet since we moved here and the other people had the same carpet from the beginning of the house being built until now. So who is counting, right? So after the nice day at the pool we returned home and had a nice relaxing time watching a movie and eating meatball sandwiches. I guess tomorrow we will try to get a movie at Kroger which I love since they are now costing only a dollar for the rental of new CD's for one night. Now that is a very good bargain for sure. I look forward to that movie cube rental. It is a real bargain. Especially since blockbuster is about $5.00 for a Cd for only two nights. Now tell me that is not a hot deal. Yes sir it is!

The Dentist!

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Well today i was informed that I had previously agreed to take my grandson to the dentist. The last time I did take him I think we were there for several hours at least. They are asian, and they are very good dentists but speed is not something they posess, not even close. So he was at his house and his stepdad was still camping which was good. But better to be safe, I told my daughter that lives with us to come with me so he won't think I have anything evil planned. So I get to the house and there is no answer, and I am ringing the bell and knocking. I even went across the street to see if he was at his friends house who he plays with alot especially now since his mom and step-dad are getting a divorce. It is even getting a little messy so I would not want to be there alone he might think I was there to do something evil. So as I went back to the door and I am banging on the front door for him, the car pulls up in the driveway and yes it's the step-dad. So as soon as I saw him I said that I was there to pick my grandson up to take him to the dentist. I yelled that right away so he would not think I was there for any other reasons. Especially hurtful reasons. So in a few minutes we were off to the dentist without anything bad happening and no one had their ruffles messed up either. After being at the dentist for over an hour and my daughter doesn't sit down because of germs my grandson calls me into the back office since he needs some questions answered. But meanwhile he tells me that they asked him if "his grandfather spoke any english", that was funny. And then he says "that they thought we were both mexicans". Now I am laughing very hard and I had to repeat that to many people. I have a wonderful family and I am very proud of them all. I really was hoping that my daughter and her husband could have worked things out since I really felt that him and I were really getting along pretty good. I know all family's have their problems and no one is perfect but I thought that we did have a connection. I always tried to make things the best I could for him when I knew he was coming over my house. I was even hoping that before too long I could have gotten to go on one of his camping trips. I was really looking for ward to doing something like that. I really don't have anyone here that I am close to other than my immediate family and I felt he was getting to that point but now with the break up coming I think that's something that won't happen. It is sad when I think of this all happening. As much as I thought they were maybe different, they also were alot the same. I really really hoped this would be a good one that made it. Oh how I was wrong I am so sorry to say....

The Pool!

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Well today was an extremely confusing day right from the start. We seemed as if we didn't know which end was up or what>. First we did not go to the convention like we were suppose to go to. Then we were going to go to the Grayson congregation and then that changed as well as with every thing else. Like I said this was a very confused day all the way through. My wife and daughter went to the other meeting and then they were going to another meeting that evening too. So it ended up where they would be going to a couple of meetings in one whole day. I do believe the company they were keeping had alot to do with it. Yes siree and I do remember her telling me how much they had in common. From horses to music and many other things also. He also told my daughter how much he enjoys shooting squirels with his shot gun when he gets bored. They seem to be very woodsey people. But they also seem to be very spiritual too. That does make me very very happy. I just hope that it wears off on my daughter too. She is a very sweet child and I do try as much as I can with the spiritual teachings. We stay pretty regular with our teaching out of the bible and also teaching the watchtower. She is a very good girl and she has a good heart. I ask Jehovah's help in giving her the spiritual guidelines that she needs so much. Please help us as a family to succeed and to obey all of the laws we need to obey dear God.