Saturday, August 22, 2009

It Hit Hard!

Hey Man!
We were all hit so very hard when we heard that grammy was hit with this ailment. We heard that she passed out from a seizure or something like that. That really put a scare in all of us. Grammy is always the sign of good health and always has all this energy. She has come here many times to cheer me up during this time when I have lost my job. But the funny thing is that she has lost her job also. But she never seems to be down. She may leave you with a scripture and good tidings and then she is on her way. The bad thing is that we don't say sometimes how we feel. Many of times I always wanted to say thank you for cheering me up and giving me some upbuilding advice and it;s always something that you really needed to hear too. Many times I have wanted to say thank you so much for keeping me in your thoughts and coming over here to cheer me up especially when she is busy herself. But no matter what she has time for all of us always. All my girls love her very much but we probably don;t say it as many times as we should say it. My wife is hit very hard with sadness right now since her mom couldn't be loved anymore than the love her daughter has for her. I never see my wife cry but today she did alot of crying and at one time I had to go downstairs to the bathroom to cry myself. The sadness just swallowed me up. Life is too short and sometimes is threatened so we need to alwys tell our loved ones that we love them.

Monday, August 17, 2009

Where are we Now?

Hey Man!
It is a wonderful thing when you get your body repaired and especially you are able to walk again. But the recouperating time can really kill you especially when you are use to working alot and you are used to being busy instead of hanging around the house. It is very tuff getting not only used to it all but adjusting your life to the time it takes to recover is unbelievable. It even makes it difficult to keep liking everyone. When you are used to seeing them for only a certain amount of time each week and then you are with them all day long and then some. My life has always been working at night so I never did see alot of the family. So we used to look forward to my days off when we would get together to do things all together. Now it is nothing like that anymore. The family looks like they have had enough of me and I can see their point of view. They have had enough and it is time for me to get back to some normalcy again. So I have all my guns out looking to get something in order to get myself back out there so I can work again. Please I need it very badly. Today I found a friend that might be getting a manager job so I could get something through that and I would be working with old time associates again. That would be so very great!

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Tubing with the Buddies!

Hey Man!
We all went tubing to the Abbott's Tubing and Rafting. It was a great day, the sun was out and it was hot, and the water was like an ice cube. They said no matter what time of the year the water stays icy cold. Brrrrrrr. But after awhile it got bearable. A couple people actually dove into the water, I was afraid I would get the grand-daddy of heart attacks if I dove in that icy cold water. We had a great time floating down or up the river whatever the right words are. We even had our three year old grandson with us and that was really a great time. Mimi took care of him the entire time of the tubing exhibition. I was suppose to help but somehow my tube would not steer her way to pick up the boy, oh my. Then after we got home we were going to spend some time at our community pool but the other group took too long to get there so we ended up going home and when they came we let them have the key so they all could go to the pool for some more swimming. We all took a nap along with our grandson. But then our son-in-law came over to pick him up instead of his mother, our daughter. That was very awkward since they are going through a divorce and he was telling his side of the story to my wife and myself. So we gave him the listening ear that he seemed to have wanted. He said how sorry he was about everything but this is what has happened. It was very sad to listen to since divorce is always a very sad experience for all involved.

Friday, August 14, 2009

Where To?

Hey Man!
It is tubing tomorrow. It should really be alot of fun as long as we can keep our mind on the tubing itself instead of any of the crazy things that are happening now at this time. My mother has been doing very badly lately and we don't know what is going on with her at all. So that is very crazy right now and it keeps getting worse. We did think that after the operation that she had would have helped her at least a little bit. But it is not looking good. No, not at all. So the doctor has given us some alternatives about what we can do about our dear mother who has fought this so hard. She has put everything she can into this. We are all so proud of her and she has given me a new lease helping me not to give up on the little things in life and letting me know how important life is. We will have to tell her that the head doctor is rccomending the hospice road for her since the other roads are too difficult for her to take. Even with an operation they don't believe she will get through the operation with her life. They feel it would be too tough on her heart and lungs, along with all her other organs. They feel as though she just wants to be medicated and sleep and we do believe that that is what she truly wants. The doctor said she likes to take the medicine and lay down and sleep, wake up and repeat the same thing over again. So after I have a phone conversation with her then we will try to find out what she wants out of all this. My brother is fighting all this because he wants to make a decision but yet he doesn't. That way no blame will come to him but if something good happens he surely will take the credit. So what now?

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Are They Really Real?

Hey Man!
Sometimes we think we find new relatives and since the computer it seems like it happens alot. But can we take people's word on something like that? I don't believe we can since it has happened to me so I know from the bad experience of it all and it's not all pretty. It can create bad feelings in the family for sure. I had a meeting with someone when I was just a kid, or at least a young man. A brief meeting caused someone to say I was the father. But sometimes they may not have the name of another individual so your name gets put on the certificate. And during these days when the economy is so bad and jobs are not the easiest things to find it makes it difficult to get the dna test since that could cost somewhere in the area of $300 to $500 dollars. But by not duing it sometimes they feel and think that it is all true and it's bad when you know that is not the case at all. It just so happens that someone at the time took an interest in this individule and that caused them to lean on me or at least lean on my name. At the time this was thought to be funny and they got their ha ha ha's out of it. But now with the computer and especially facebook it is not that funny anymore. Especially when you are tracked down and the only way to convince anyone is that home dna test that they send you. And especially when someone in your family is just wanting something like this so very bad now. Why? I really don't know since there are five siblings already so we have a large family. Maybe it's because we have five girls and this other person is a male. Could they have wanted a male in the family that bad that they just grabbed onto this and ran with it. It is so very hard to explain or to believe as we look at it now. It's the man that produces the male and that is just fine with me but now I don't want to think that I might have that ability to produce a male. I am not happy with that conclusion at all now.

Saturday, August 8, 2009

The Move!

Hey Man!
What a difference between the tab and the enter button. It's something else. Well today was to be the move and alot of the friends were standing by to help my mother-in-law which was so great. That is so amazing when there are so many people that look to help each other. That is when you really see the love at it's best. I was on stand-by also. There were so many people that I was never really called in to help. I hope it was that and not because my grand dad had bought me a walker and a wheel chair. He was trying to be funny but it was a little gruesome instead. Since yesterday I got some bee stings and I got a very bad reaction and I had to lay down for awhile since I was having very bad pains in my chest from it. It was also my grandson's football game tonight and I was about to go but I thought that some secret people might be going so I opted out of going to his first game of football which made me feel bad about the whole ordeal. Even though I was feeling bad about it all I still stayed out of going to the function although I had gotten excited about the whole thing. I just keep saying that there will be another and I will be going there for that one. I assured him that I wouldn't miss that one even though he didn't seemed to be devastated or anything like that. I will make it up to him down the line about the whole thing. Love is a wonderful thing and we should never let it take us down with it at all.

The Move!